Today I was reminded, with a renewed vigor and desire, of a possible future I had once pursued. The situation is that I have made connections for a potential business venture with a colleague. We’ve got a lot of ideas and a lot of possible plans, but for some reason we can’t ever get anything concrete going. At this point I am frustrated by her distance, thus I’m doubting my abilities and potential for this to work, even though it’s something I really want. There are parts of the situation that are confusing and frustrating for me, and I wanted to get some clarification. This is really the first time I’ve read for myself using the Celtic Cross spread. Here goes! (Illustrated with Fenestra.)
1. The Situation - Knight of Swords
I’m ambitious, ready to go, pushing forward. “What are we waiting for?!”
2. The Challenge - Eight of Cups
I’m holding onto my current life too tightly. I’m seeking my own independence, yet gripping tightly onto Darling, and yet not wanting to pull him away from things he may want. Sigh, pretty much.
3. The Past Current - Knight of Pentacles
Plenty of success in my career and intellectual endeavors. Feeling good about my achievements, capabilities, and potential to succeed.
4. The Future Current - Knight of Cups
A maturation of relationships, but still not completely comfortable. Heading toward ideals and dreams. (Well, this sounds promising.)
5. Resources - Page of Cups
I’ve got plenty of inspiration! My heart aches every time I think of plans for this future. I am all in, loyal and willing.
6. Aim - Four of Pentacles
The beginnings of success. Something concrete, that I can devote my life and my energy to. (Yes, the goal is to etch a place for myself in the world, and build myself a solid foundation, a home where I can live and work and love and grow old.)
7. How I See Myself - Two of Swords
Having trouble making up my mind. Feeling caught between two possible roads and not knowing which one to take. Feeling indecisive (hah, so typical of me).
8. How Others See Me - Eight of Pentacles
Settling into my own, as far as my career. Hard working, and beginning to reap success from all that I’ve put into my work.
9. Concerns (Hopes/Fears) - Six of Cups
Dwelling in the past? Am I afraid that I’ll regret it if I choose this path? Or am I afraid that I’m CURRENTLY dwelling in the past, and that this path isn’t even open to me anymore? Hmm…
10. Outcome - Five of Swords
Well. So the likely outcome is that I’ll face challenges and frustration? Defeat? After all the encouraging cards in this spread, I just can’t understand this outcome. Really disappointing. I feel even more lost than before. Really?